May 2010
2 posts
heaven is perpetually 4:17 am, chocolate chip pancakes, movies, books, and drugs.
oh hello, tendencies.
fuck off please and thank you. i don’t need this persistent want of isolation.
it is sunday, i feel like shit. constantly getting blown off helps, you know?
my friends have their own lives now. i knew i was out of the circle a long time ago. so fuck you all very much, for not trying.
i don’t need you anymore. because it’s more than obvious that you’ve moved on. everyone...
January 2010
2 posts
Going down the rabbit hole (once again), ladies...
Hello, suicidal thoughts in my head. Hello, loss of desire to speak to anyone. Hello, isolation.
The gang is back in town.
I must be going crazy again. Things are moving and...
I’m losing control. Losing my sanity. This medication isn’t helping anymore. I’m going to drink a glass of wine, smoke a cigarette, and sleep after this movie.
November 2009
2 posts
i'm thankful that i'm still alive and didn't take...
god, i’ve come so far. though, i’m beginning to get back to that place. i’ll fight it as long as i can.
it's hard to explain:
- 3 hour conversations with no silences - the way i look at him - the way he looks at me - the sincerity of his words and kisses - how those kisses make my heart palpitate - how those kisses make his heart flutter - the way our hands fit perfectly - everything we do - everything we say - everything we don’t say out loud
it’s a vibe you get around us. i have found my other half....
October 2009
3 posts
report on tonight's events:
parents and i have been fighting all day. got my keys taken away from me. thenn my ma went into MY CAR and searched it but she was apparently trying to figure how to open the hood. i took my one set of my keys from her room and i was trying to get out of there and she kept charging at me so of course i’m gonna do it right the fuck back.
she ran to my car, got in, and locked the doors. i...
his kisses are better than yours.
i wish that you never met me.
i’ll tear you apart unintentionally. apologies for what may come. i’ll try to not let anything happen, but i make no promises.
September 2009
7 posts
people can critique me (positively or negatively),...
i dont know how long i can take it.
you need to learn to step it up.
i’m trying to make this work.
i want it to work.
i’m gonna try as best as i can.
cause i like you so damn much.
i'm a good friend, person, and girlfriend.
i will not kiss him. i will not think about him. i will not mutually jump his bones.
i am not made of stone. it's just one of my...
the only reason i tell people about my past and...
i’ve hurt enough people already.
and no, this isn’t “emo” by your bullshit standards. i dont want your fucking sympathy. i’m just trying to warn you.
in my dreams, there are nightmares.
where is my mind? i found myself in the hallway floor this morning. my door unlocked and wide open. the bedroom is all torn apart. my life is flung around in it. am i sleepwalking?
June 2009
3 posts
she drives me to drinking vodka.
i’m such a push-over for her.
you expect me to crawl out a window or sneak out this late.
what nerve.
it's a first kind of day.
May 2009
1 post
I Don't Know What To Call This (multiple people)
Deny everything you say to me. (It’s just common courtesy.) Impossible to change the colour of my skin. The shape of my nose and where my family once was living. Am I too tall? Are my hips too much for you to handle? Man up. Grow up as well. You’re being juvenile. Why is it that you make me want to trade in all my cards for a new hand? Cynical. Jaded. Prejudiced. The all “American” white...